We Need Better Mental Healthcare for NICU Moms Heres Why

We Need Better Mental Healthcare for NICU Moms: Here’s Why

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Last Updated on January 22, 2024 by Allison Lancaster

This past week has been an absolute blur. After being told at 35.5 weeks I had preeclampsia and would be delivering at 37 weeks, my pregnancy went from a happy and wonderful time to being at the doctor every other day for NST’s and checking my blood pressure multiple times a day. At 37 weeks, I delivered our beautiful baby girl via scheduled C-section. Her birth was uneventful and she let out those beautiful cries that every mom wants to hear as soon as she entered this world.

After she was born, she was diagnosed with double pneumothoraxes. I had no idea what this meant, but according to Medlineplus.gov, pneumothoraxes occur when some of the tiny air sacs (alveoli) in a baby’s lung become overinflated and burst. This causes air to leak into the space between the lung and chest wall (pleural space). In our baby girl’s case, she had a very large one on the left side and one on the right side that was putting pressure on her heart. This resulted in her admission to the NICU at a hospital away from where she was born.

Hearing that your baby is going to the NICU is something that you truly cannot be prepared for. When my son was born, he aspirated at birth and was diagnosed with pneumonia the next evening after his birth. This resulted in him spending 14 days in the special care nursery on IV antibiotics. Those 14 days were some of the most difficult days of my life. However, with his birth and condition, there was nothing that could have been done to prevent it. Of course, it was always in the back of my mind with this pregnancy, but even with our girl being born at 37 weeks, I was assured the chances of her needing any additional care was miniscule. When it happened, I was honestly in shock and had no idea what to do. I was recovering from major surgery, on strong medication and they were taking my baby to another hospital. I hadn’t even held her!

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We spent 7 long days with our girl in the NICU. I was able to see her at least once a day, every day that she was in there which was a blessing. However, being told when you can see your baby, when you can hold her and that you need to “let her rest and not touch her” is something that no parent should have to go through, especially right after giving birth. While I am truly thankful for the wonderful care she received in the NICU and the fact that she made a full recovery, there are lingering effects from this traumatic event and changes that need to be made to postpartum care for moms of NICU babies.

NICU Moms are NOT Normal Moms

The hour before I was released from the hospital, I was brought a survey to fill out to gauge my postpartum depression ‘risk’. This survey had questions like: “are you more sad than normal”, “are you sleeping less than normal” and other risk assessment questions. While I understand that this is a great tool used for moms who are taking their babies home, how can you ask these questions to a mom when her baby is in NICU? Of course I’m more sad than normal, I’m leaving the hospital without my baby in my arms, going to the hospital where she is and am going to go sit with her while she’s hooked up to oxygen, a feeding tube and more monitors than you can imagine. Of course I’m not sleeping, the cries of other babies down the hall the past two days has been a constant reminder that my baby has a chest tube in her side. We need to understand that NICU moms are not normal moms who are taking their babies home. Healthcare professionals need to understand this as well.

NICU Moms Often Neglect Their Own Postpartum Care

The NICU where our girl spent a week was part of a large hospital with a large parking lot. The walk from the door of the hospital to the NICU was probably at least a half a mile through the hospital. We weren’t allowed to stay there, and we live 30 minutes away from the hospital. During the time she was there, my days revolved around pumping breastmilk and going to see her twice a day to deliver milk and spend a bit of time with her. I was thankful for my husband and mom, who both insisted on wheeling me into see her in a wheelchair in the early days, but I noticed so many moms who were hunched over trying to walk back and forth to see their babies. I also felt pitiful being wheeled in and out, so I insisted on walking back and forth several times – and let me tell you, it was painful. Every new mom is sleep deprived, but NICU moms are sleep deprived on an entirely different level. When I was able to sleep, I constantly woke up to check my phone to make sure the hospital hadn’t called with some horrible news. I am a firm believer that postpartum physical care is an important part to postpartum mental care. If we feel horrible physically, it’s difficult to feel great mentally.

NICU Moms Are Often Pushed Aside

While this may not be the case everywhere, it was the experience I had. The nurses and doctors, for the most part, were great where our girl was. I of course am so thankful for their care for our girl and that they were able to push her toward a complete recovery. However, I did feel pushed aside on several occasions and for me, this was one of the most detrimental things to me mentally.

On one occasion, I arrived at 8:15 PM to bring milk to our baby and visit with her. She was getting her feed through her feeding tube, but kept pulling at it with her hands. Her nurse was having a conversation and laughing with two other parents, so I grabbed my baby’s hands and was holding her hand so she couldn’t pull her tube out while the feeding was running. The nurse walked over and told me I was disturbing and aggravating my baby, and by doing so, she was more likely to aspirate which would ‘set her back’. She also proceeded to tell me that I wasn’t able to hold her after her feeding was over, because I should have been there at 8 PM for her “hands on time”. I had no idea there was such a thing as hands on time or what in the world she was talking about, we had been allowed to hold her pretty much anytime we were there. There was also an instance where an ultrasound tech came in for a follow up kidney ultrasound. We had no idea an initial kidney ultrasound had been done days earlier and that something had shown up on that initial one that they wanted to ensure wasn’t an issue.

While I understand that the goal of the caregivers is to care for the babies in the NICU, a lack of communication can cause moms to feel disconnected and pushed to the side when it comes to the care of their child.

Being A NICU Mom Is Lonely

Remember the saying “it takes a village”? That is something that NICU moms don’t get to experience. Often times, the village is made up of close friends and family. When your baby is in the NICU, visitors are often limited to parents and grandparents. The time that you would normally spend at home, adjusting to life with a newborn and receiving help from those closest to you, you spend traveling back and forth to a hospital and constantly worrying about your child’s health.

Being a NICU mom is the loneliest thing I have experience in my life. While I was blessed to have my husband and mom with me every day our girl was in the NICU, it was still so lonely. As a mom, I had carried our baby for 9 months and then to have her ripped from my arms and not be able to care for her like I wanted to was a horrible experience. That combined with trying to pump, increase my milk supply, take care of my health and deal with postpartum hormones made me feel isolated from everyone around me. I felt like no one really understood what it was like to be HER MOM and be going through what I was. Of course, I knew that my husband and family were worried sick about our baby, but being a mom of a NICU baby is an entirely different experience.

The Fear Doesn’t Stop After the NICU

Call it PTSD or whatever you want, but bringing a baby home from the NICU is another roller coaster ride. All moms and parents experience some form of anxiety when bringing their new baby home, but after your child has been sick and hospitalized, that fear reaches an entirely different level. While you’re in the NICU, your baby is constantly monitored. You learn how to read those monitors, how to unhook them for a diaper change and you get used to your baby constantly having wires and tubes attached. Once you do get to bring your baby home, you of course are so thrilled, but you’re terrified.

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Every movement or whimper at night makes you jump out of bed and count their respirations per minute. When they cough while drinking a bottle, you fear that they aspirated. You’re terrified of the unknown and think about the ‘what ifs’ a lot. Personally, having two sick babies has caused me to become a germaphobe. I constantly wash my hands and encourage everyone around us to. I also plan to keep our baby at home for a few months so that she isn’t exposed to germs in public places. I’m terrified of what a simple cold could turn into. The fear of your baby having to go back to the hospital is real and something that NICU moms live with everyday.

Moms of NICU babies are truly warriors and I know that not everyone has a positive outcome from the NICU like we did. However, I truly believe that the mental health of moms of NICU babies is just as important as the healthcare of the babies. In an environment where mental health is finally being talked about, I hope that more conversations are started around the mental healthcare of NICU moms.

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  1. Megan Cunningham says:

    This!!! I had an emergency c-section at 31 wks with my twins. They spent 6wks and 7wks in the NICU. They were born on Monday and I did not get to hold them until Friday. I think the worst for me was taking one baby home and having to leave the other one in the NICU all alone. It is an experience that changes you to the core. I still have some PTSD when we have to go back to the hospital. Thank you for this.

    1. Thank you for stopping by! I can’t imagine what you went through, we were only there a week and it was horrible. I agree, I do still have PTSD also- it breaks my heart to drive by the hospital! Thank you for sharing, hugs and prayers to you!!

  2. Preemie mom says:

    A nurse in the NICU asked me why I was crying- that I needed to stop since at least my baby was alive! I had just gone through an emergency c-section with HELLP syndrome & was sitting by my 3-pound baby in the NICU. Like I was being shamed for having a moment of weakness.
    The rest of the staff was wonderful, but I still wonder wth this nurse was thinking to say that to me.

    1. Yes, all that it takes is that ONE nurse to hurt you in ways you will never forget. I had the same experience and it made a horrible situation -even worse. Thank you for sharing, hugs and prayers to you!!

  3. Lori Thomas says:

    Applauding you this very moment!! Finally someone speaking out!! Was just discussing this with my husband. With a 27wkr who is now 3, I am here to tell all, that, it (PTSD) hasn’t changed or eased since my first trip to the NICU. Along with that, other problems arise. Financial troubles, marital struggles, just activities of daily life can be scary. Parents NEED MORE SUPPORT PERIOD. They need to be monitored by physicians that specialize in these types of trauma. Parents also need more education on the what could happens, what does happen, and how to cope. Trained Social workers need to be available at all times. So many NICU parents are divorcing, and worse yet, taking their own lives. We have got to get this word out there!! Seminars, advocacy, resources for better mental and overall health. Thank you for posting this!! Let’s make a difference!!?

    1. You are so right!! There are so many issues and so little support. It breaks my heart to see how the effects are long term and there is no support for these parents who have just gone through the worst time of their lives. I 100% agree, I am doing all that I can to advocate!!

  4. Very true. The PTSD set in 3 months into our NICU stay. We spent a total of 107 days in the NICU. I was diagnosed with severe preeclampsia on a Saturday afternoon, admitted to the hospital, & had an emergency c-section on Monday morning due to HELLP Syndrome. I never got a chance to process what had just happened to me as the focus quickly shifted to my 1lb7oz baby for the next 3.5 months. It wasn’t until we got past the rough 3 months & I could breathe-that the PTSD emerged. It’s 3 years later & it’s still there. Better, but there are still triggers.

  5. Oh my goodness, you are a strong momma with a strong warrior baby! We are 2.5 years out from my son’s NICU stay and 3 months out from my daughter’s NICU stay and there are still triggers- odd ones too, but I try to remain thankful over anxious about it all, so difficult. Hugs to you mama!

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