Last week I had one of those days. You know, the ones where you wish you could just press ‘reset’ and start all over. I thought to myself several times throughout the day “Lord, why did you allow me to become a mom again?”. I had several moments of questioning, “can I do this?”, “can I do it all?”. It was a bad day. I felt like the worst mom on the planet. I had to keep reminding myself, it’s a bad day, not a bad mom.
Looking back now, it was really not even that bad of a day. Isn’t that how most of our ‘horrible days’ are?[Tweet theme=”tweet-box-normal-blue”]Hindsight is 20-20, especially when it comes to bad days. @lovinglivinglancaster[/Tweet] The thing that set the day up to be horrible, was the fact that our son got his first ‘boo boo’ and it was all my fault. He is 7 months old and isn’t quite crawling yet, so it’s not like he can get into that much stuff by himself. As a boy mom, I know that boo boos and ‘ouchies’ are inevitable. I just didn’t think that his first one would happen at 7 months old. I really didn’t think it would be my fault. I’m the careful one. I’m the level-headed one. I’m the mama bear. Then, it just happened. A good day, turned bad. I had my laptop sitting on a pillow on our bed. Our 7 month old was sitting on the bed, propped up with a pillow. I walked into the bathroom in our room, turned around and he had the TV remote in his mouth. I grabbed the remote and then it happened. He lunged forward toward the remote, but instead his forehead caught the corner of my laptop. Silence. Then tears and crying. I grabbed him up and consoled him, the realized he had an indention on his forehead where the corner of the laptop caught him and a scratch near it. I’m a bad mom! That’s the first thought that popped into my head.
What if I had just moved the laptop? What if I hadn’t walked into the bathroom? What if I had just put him in his swing? What if he had hit his eye on the corner? What if? Of course, it wasn’t a bad injury and the next day you couldn’t even tell it had happened. The what if’s nearly broke my heart that day. [Tweet theme=”tweet-box-normal-blue”]I ‘what if’d’ myself into thinking I was a bad mom. @lovinglivinglancaster[/Tweet]
Deep down, I knew it wasn’t true. The Lord gave me this little one to care for. He gave me the knowledge and desire to be a good mom. It was a bad day. That doesn’t mean I’m a bad mom. A bad day, not a bad mom. No matter where you are in life, I can assure you that you will struggle with feelings of being a bad _____. A bad student. A bad wife. A bad daughter. A bad co-worker. A bad friend. Today I want to remind you, if you are in Christ, you may fail, you may struggle…but you are exactly where He has put you. [Tweet theme=”tweet-box-normal-blue”]You are good enough. You are HIS workmanship. @lovinglivinglancaster[/Tweet] His grace is sufficient for you.
Ephesians 2:10- For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.
2 Corinthians 12:9 –But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.